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Saturday, January 02, 2010

Sat, 02 Jan 2010 21:21:27 GMT

I don't want to write anymore. I no longer have the heart to...so this is it. Goodbye.

Things I hope for you this year

Fri, 01 Jan 2010 06:43:34 GMT

I hope you know how much I love you,
I hope you dance with all your heart and all your soul,
I hope you know how I'm thrilled just to know you,
I hope you see that I need you to make me whole.
I hope you always see endings as new beginnings,
I hope you're never afraid to smile and laugh,
I hope that when rejoice you go on singing,
I hope you're not afraid to dive right in and splash.
I hope you hold me close and hear my heart beating,
I hope you know that when it beats, it beats for you,
I hope you'll never stop trying to keep me from leaving,
I hope you always want to talk and keep me up till two.
I hope you feel safe when I wrap my arms around you,
I hope you find the sweet comfort in my voice,
I hope you know I'm always there, thinking of you,
I hope you know that because of you, I'll always rejoice.

I love you with all that I am, in every way I know how, and I need you. I hope you'll never forget that. I know you could do much better, and I never want you to be unhappy, even if your happiness means chasing something bigger and better than me. I just hope you know, most of all, that I want you. I'll always want you. You have a special place in my heart that will always be there, and I'll always want you to stay and fill that space. I love you so much.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Sun, 27 Dec 2009 15:56:45 GMT

I suck at this.

I'm posting this because it's one of the most beautiful works ever written.

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 22:54:55 GMT

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Perhaps an attempt at free form?

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 22:50:27 GMT

and I've decided something...
until now, fear has always gripped my soul,
its icy fingers have clutched my heart,
stopped its beating at times,
and chilled my bones.
No more will fear conquer me,
for I will conquer fear.
I will not let my fear of losing you,
of watching you walk away,
finding someone else,
or being dissatisfied because of my inadequacy
slow me down.
I will no longer tell myself
that this is only real if you can give me everything
commit to everything
believe everything
right now.
For now, I have decided
that I will love you,
with all of my heart,
all my strength,
with every fiber in me.
I won't hesitate for worrying about being hurt
again.
I won't hesitate for worrying about losing what I love more than my life
my breath
my wellbeing,
that which my happiness depends on,
again.
I will love with veracity
with strength
with absolute resolve.
And because of that love,
I will work harder
and do better,
to TRY to be the man,
the only one,
that you need.
For I know that my heart is yours,
my love is yours.
And the greatest way I can show you,
the best chance I have of never losing you
again,
the only way I can hope to avoid that which I most desperately must avoid,
is to work.
And to hope.
And to love.
And if you decide that you want me,
absolutely want me,
then yours I am.
Even if it's four seconds,
four minutes,
four days,
four weeks,
four months,
or four years from now.
I will not lose patience,
or hope,
or resolve.
Such is the power and might with which I love you.

Here and Now

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 01:54:31 GMT

here and now
I know I'm where I should be
here and now
I wish you were next to me
here and now
my heart is longing for one thing
here and now
is right, but not where I'll belong
here and now
sometimes I wish it wouldn't be so long
here and now
near or far, you'll always be my song.

Ode to Cheese

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:08:30 GMT

Cheese can come in many forms,
some blue, some yellow, soft and hard.
it can be stringy, or a block, sometimes a wheel,
some times it's fragrant, but usually it smells.

swiss is the holiest of these;
bleu can make the allergic sneeze;
pepperjack is my favourite cheese.

what would a sandwich be,
were it not for cheese!?
just a boring compilation of meat.
We need cheese.

(yes, this is a joke. =)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 12:52:33 GMT

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all thing, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails." -I Cor 13:4-7,8

Friday, September 25, 2009

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 03:12:09 GMT

I just don't think I'll ever be the same
I suppose that's a good thing, in a way
Means you meant enough to make your mark
And that I gave you my whole heart.

The smiles we shared that I'll never forget
Times we kissed and never wanted to quit
The way you loved me changed me for good
You gave me joy which I never understood.

Now I'm broken, like glass on the rocks
I'm desperate and dying, helpless and lost,
I'm bitter and withering, falling apart
I'm lonely and listing, tired and torn

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 12:49:57 GMT

"I need you, now and forever, to stay right here with me. Don't ever leave...
Love was kept from me like a secret, and I swore that I was thru...until you..."
-Dave Barnes